crickets.....

Recounting a conversation from last night with Mark...

"I don't know.  It seems like every time I look at it (this blog), I think, 'Why would anyone want to read it anyway? I don't have anything to say that is that important.  Isn't it sort of self-promoting?'"

Mark was quiet, presumably because there aren't really answers to these rhetorical statements.  Or because his hamburger had just finished cooking. 

A few minutes later, he said, "Well you just have a lot going on right now."

It's true.  I graduated, moved, started a job, and am planning a wedding with him.  But that's not why it's been so quiet you can hear the crickets. 

It's because I feel like if I'm really going to have a blog, I have to have things to say.  Lately, those things have been too private to share publicly, or I feel like they pale in skill or wisdom in comparison to blogs I read.  It's silly, I know.  But I think my silences boils down to the fact that I created this blog to help me remember that life is bigger than grad school.  It had a specific purpose, and it has passed now.  I want to keep writing, but I think it might need to be in a different space, a different feel and purpose.  I've prayed about it, and I have some ideas, but I haven't acted on any of them yet.  

So I will probably post one more time in this space to let the few of you who read this know where I'm going.  It might awhile, but I'm pretty sure I'll be back.  :)

Until then, please enjoy the crickets....